I am feeling a bit down today. This weekend has been a really good one but as of about an hour or so ago I just got really down. I feel like all I do is cook and clean... I don't even have a fully stocked kitchen. I am working on it though! Every week I am buying something new this week was a hand mixer... and some wonderful photos that I am actually designing my kitchen around. Next week I think I am going to get mixing bowls. Depending on our tax return I am getting my knives and/or my pan set...
I feel like I am always cleaning. I know people say that a clean house is pretty much impossible when you have children but I hate that I am so sick of my house being messy all the time. I feel like I am so far from the person I used to be. I didn't want to be that person forever but I didn't think I would be so far from it... I don't know what I want. And I don't know how to get what I want when I don't know what it is that I want... I feel lost and confused. I feel ugly and unimportant. I am also so sick of winter I could die!
So here is my rant for the day sorry it was so... Blah.
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